Blindfold

These past weeks, I have been blind, deaf, foolish, and many other adjectives that we can use to describe when we do not “hear God.” For the past weeks, I have been complaining that God do not care about me that God do not talk to me, and that God have abandon me. Why? Because all the things that have been going on in my head and everyday life. Did He really stop talking to me? Two years ago I start to hear Him, why He just decide to not talk to me?

My head fills up with dinosaurs, why the bible does not mentions them? It is real the two tables of the 10 commandments? Where is it? Why God could talk straight to people in the Old Testament, and He don’t talk that way to us today? and many others thousand of questions that I have in my head. The funny thing is that today, I realize that God have been with me all this time, I do not see him, because He is carrying me like the footsteps on the beach. Yesterday, God send me an Angel, well he did not have wings, but almost. He pray for me, and he even give me a book that he told me that he buy it for someone else, but that he have the urge to buy an extra one, so he buy it and keep it in the trunk of his car for couple of weeks, until yesterday.

The book is just amazing, answer me so many but many questions that I have. It don’t tells me about the creation of the dinosaurs, or why I have to follow the Bible, it don’t even tells me where are the two tables of the 10 commandments are hidden, but tells me what I have been doing wrong all this years, explains me why the poor communication with my sister, it tells me the reason why I think the way I think about my ex-husband, it also tells me why there are so many hypocrite Christians, it also tells me how to stop been a hypocrite Christian, and I just have been reading 40 pages!

Today, I see that God have been talking to me through, my CRHP sisters, through friends, kids, Scripture, dreams, but because I have been blindfold, I could not see it. So what God did? I ask Him for a miracle on Wednesday night, and I got it He send me this book to help me to realize that He still here with me and He does not let me go, not matter how many bad things I said or think about Him, He still carrying me because I am to weak or lazy to walk next to Him, so He do not abandon me, He carry me!

I Love you God!

  Philippians 4:6-7

⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Big Hug,
MRM