Looking

Some people go through their lives looking for a purpose for it, other people do not even think about goals for their lives, another people think they have all the answer and have their life already set up and have a clear path where to go. I believe everybody and nobody have the answer, contradictory, right? Certain people, like me are in constant searching for the truth, but what is really the truth? What is that we truly are looking for and why we are looking it?

Last week, I went to a church where Frank Kelly was speaking. He has a ministry where he serves as spiritual guide, gives classes, retreat, and conferences about God’s word and work. He claims to have a gift of discerning word of knowledge and healing- often accompanied by scriptural verses personally designated for the person with whom he talks. He talked to me, and even was not what I was expecting; he could tell me the reality of my anxiety. Moreover, he told me that anything that gives me peace it comes from God. Yes, I know, any Christian person know that peace=God, but this was not the case.

I tend to be a little bit skeptical with this type of things, but I feel that I need answers, answers that only God and I can give.  Reading my devotional of today, Jesus tells me that He is everywhere, in people faces, in the sky, in the breeze, anywhere where I want to see Him.  Again, time is a precious and expensive (not only monetary) thing when we do not manage correctly. I acknowledge that I need to start make more time for God, as I use to do, because as a conclusion; when I start letting time pass by without thinking in God, without recognizing His work in my everyday life is when I start feeling lost.  The best part is that He always is waiting for me no matter what I have or haven’t done, He is always waiting for me to seek Him, and that gives me peace and hope. 

Jeremiah 29:13-14

¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ¹⁴ I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.

Big Hug,

MRM

Judging the Coffee

At my work there, is a guy that no matter how many times at day I see him, he is always walking around or getting in the elevator with a cup of coffee. This guy does not have any expression other than serious in his face, and every time we get on in the elevator he does not say a word. Where I work is a four-story building, and I get really aggravate when people specially this guy take the elevator just to go from the first floor to the second. I think he is not that old to just go up one floor from the stairs.  

The other day, I was walking to the elevator, by the way the elevator is really, but really slow, which can make you somewhat uncomfortable if you are inside with someone that have a face that said “DO NOT TALK TO ME!” Standing there, I realize that the coffee guy was behind me leaning against the wall with his coffee in hand trying really hard to breath. I just go toward him and ask him if he needs help or if he would like me to call someone. He told me no, that he was ok, that he just need to catch his breath, because he just use his inhalator. So, I just stand there with him until the elevator came. We get on the elevator and he gives me thanks for caring and asking him if he need help. I say “no problem.” He get out of the elevator, of course just one floor up and he say “have a nice day” and I say “you too.” I think that was the first time in more than 4 years that guy talk to me.

Yesterday, I saw him again in the elevator going up just one floor again, but this time I was not aggravate by that. He says hi to me and I reply back. I felt weird to receive a greeting from him. This experience teaches me that I definitely need to stop judging people and that people definitely can change for good when others show them humility. 

James 2:14-17

14 What good is it, my brothers, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can that faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is poorly clothed and lacking in daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Go in peace, be warmed and filled,” without giving them the things needed for the body, what good[a] is that? 17 So also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

Big Hug,

MRM

Time

Times fly when you are so busy and things comes around, and then before you can finish what you just start more things, issues, and situations that need you prompt attention comes around at the same time too.  In those times is when we really need more from God, to give us wisdom to make right decisions and patient to wait for His answers and deal with other people specially love ones.  

Jesus have been with me during this past two crazy, busy, unusual months, and even that I might not remember Him or talk to Him how I use to do, He always  have let me know that He is there waiting for me to return to Him. God definitely is our Father that knows how to let us know that He is here with us in the only way and unique way that only each of us can understand and nobody else. 

Yes, we are living in times where electronics, invade our daily lives and privacy, yes, we are living in times where it is hard to sit around the table with family and have dinner every night, yes, we are living in times where people need to have 2 and 3 jobs in order to provide the needs of a home, and yes, we live in times where communicate with God sometimes are not part of our “to do” list, but there is always the opportunity to add Him in our busy schedule of issues, work, cleaning, studies, parties, families reunion, sadness, etc, etc, etc. 

We are the lucky ones, because not matter how busy God can be, He never leaves our side and is always taking care of us, and providing us what we need to let us know that He is watching us, and that not necessary means happily ever after, sometimes we need a storm to help us to open our eyes and stop for a second…

Deuteronomy 31:6

6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Big Hug,

MRM

Who I am?

I wonder how many of you know your-self. Not only think about superficial things, but inner things, like the way you feel, the way you think, the certain way that you do things. What things you like, what things you dislike. Do you recognize when you are sad or happy or melancholic? Do you know why you feel that way? Do you know when you are truly sick or when you just feeling sick. Do you recognize when you are mad? Do you know what are your hobbies, your strengths and weakness? Do you really know your-self?

As weeks pass, I have been trying to define who I am and all above questions. It is not an easy task, because you do not know your-self in one hour not even in one week. That takes time and dedication. We are living in a fast-forward word, where we truly do not have time to think about us, to know us. That makes me think if I do not make time to know myself, to recognize who I am and the way I react to certain situations, if I do not have time to know what I like or why I feel sad or anxious, how in the world I can know who is Jesus? How I can recognize when He talks to me? How I can spread His word how He wants us to do? 

I think the more I know myself, the closer I get to God, the more I know Him. He create me, He knows me better than even what I know about me. I think it is good idea to start knowing myself, recognizing my feelings, my like and dislike things. How that is possible? For example one thing that I know about me is that if am late to go to work or to go anyplace, I get anxious and drive really fast and by default always found a slower driver in front of me that take my anxiety levels to the max. Knowing this about myself, I start taking to God help me to not delay myself to get out of the house, and if I am already late ask Him for patient when I am driving (I am guessing this is when the slow driver appear in front of me). If I am feeling like sick, headaches, and things like felling really sick, I start praying to God to help me through the sickness. When I feel the stress from school I talk to God to help me through the homework and tests. 

Knowing yourself helps you to fix things ahead of time, to accept things without major issues, but most important help you to get closer to God, help you to know God better, Help you to recognize Him when He talks to you. Most of my mornings when I am driving to go catch my bus, I kind that always get there like one minute before the bus departure. Many times, I am driving taking and praying to God to hold the bus one second until I get there and don’t let the red lights stop me. The 95% of the time, somehow I always get on the bus even when I know is impossible to get in.

Psalm 145:18-20

18 The Lord is close to everyone who calls out to him, to all who call out to him sincerely.

19 God shows favor to those who honor him, listening to their cries for help and saving them.

20 The Lord protects all who love him, but he destroys every wicked person.

Big Hug,

MRM

Habakkuk

 In the last couple of weeks, I have been dealing with mixing feelings with God. I keep wondering how some people that do not deserve certain benefits and “happiness” in life, God provides them those things? Many things come to my mind like, I should not be judgmental or who I am to decide or tell who deserve or not deserve things or why I care about what other people lives?  Then I calm myself and try to not think about it, but it is really hard not get mad at life and God. 

After couple of weeks that I do not take my bible to read something or anything, last night, I decide to take the bible and open any page on it and read anything. It opens in the first page of the Habakkuk book. To be honest and is kind a shame of me… I really do not remember heard about this book before, so I read the small introduction of this book. The introduction explains that the book is about the dialogue between the prophet Habakkuk and God. Habakkuk was irritated with God’s “inaction” in the world. He wanted to see God do something more, particularly in the area of justice for evildoers. The book of Habakkuk guided his frustration into prayers and eventually praise to God, rather than trying to run from the Lord as Jonah did.

After reading the introduction I just laugh and say in my mind to God, “you really like to talk to me very clearly when You want!” I read the first two chapters before falling asleep. This morning I feel relax and happy, God spoke to me in a clear way for me to understand. I know it is hard sometimes to understand God’s will, but we need to just focus on our mission in this life not spend time and effort looking other people lives, material things, the way they do or not do things, and not comparing their lives with ours. 

Habakkuk 2:2-5

² Then the Lord answered me and said, write a vision, and make it plain upon a tablet
so that a runner can read it. ³There is still a vision for the appointed time; it testifies to the end;
it does not deceive. If it delays, wait for it; for it is surely coming; it will not be late. ⁴ Some people’s desires are truly audacious; they don’t do the right thing. But the righteous person will live honestly. ⁵ Moreover, wine betrays an arrogant man. He doesn’t rest. He opens his jaws like the grave; like death, he is never satisfied. He gathers all nations to himself and collects all peoples for himself.

Big Hug,
MRM